Wednesday, June 17, 2009

warmth, sunshine and a good thunderstorm

I'm very open about how much the cold, grey, incessant New England rain simply drags my mood down. It doesn't help that May is usually around the end of the semester/year and I'm tired, stressed out and really just want to be done- the greyness really doesn't help around that time. And yeah, on the random day in May when the sun actually dares to shine in Ct, I break out my lovely skirts and skip along enjoying the warmth and sunshine.

Fast foward a few weeks, and for the first time in years and years, I'm in Ghana during the rainy season. We've had 2 wonderful thunderstorms- complete with lightening and thunder and all :) Of course, seeing as our house is not in danger of being flooded and these storms were at night, I could smile to myself, turn around and settle in for a good night's sleep with the sound of rain lulling me to sleep without worrying about potential damage etc. But yeah, this is just to say how much I love the weather here. Yeah, its hot- often uncomfortably so. But its also sunny and there are birds singing and plants blooming and every now and then, there's a good thunderstorm. People are more laid back, less uptight- yeah, that usually means slower- but still- it's a refreshing change.

Now, I'm sure that when things start to not work effectively (eg light goes out for days, phone reception is spotty etc etc) I'll get annoyed and wish for the efficiency and orderliness of New England. But for now, I'm going to enjoy the sun and the rain :)

Wanting something very badly

It appears that stress and busyness are my creative juices. So of course, in my last week of school with exams looming ahead of me, this seems like a good time to start a post.

Have you ever wanted something very very badly? A new job? A promotion? Top grades in exams? Kids? That admission letter? whatever?
What do you do then?
1. Tell yourself if doesn't really matter that much and you dont want it as badly as you do?

2. Tell yourself that if you stop wanting it so badly, you'll actually stop wanting it (and secretely hope that you get it anyway)

3. Do everything in your power to get it? What if it's out of your hands?

4. Pray and pray and pray till God delivers it? What if He doesn't want it for you?

Do any of these options work? and if they don't then what? This post doesn't make as much sense now- there was a point to it sometime when I started it. Eitherway, I think the question is still valid.